grace replaced

"Out of his fullness we have already received grace in place of grace already given. For the law was given through Moses; grace and truth came through Jesus Christ."
-John, disciple of Jesus

Help me, O my God.
This Jesus--
Who replaced grace
Already given
Help me receive
His grace and truth.

How do you replace grace?
Put in its place
A better One?

And how do we replace this Grace
With one
Or several
That suit our tastes better?

How do You keep on
Graciously giving Grace
And Truth
To us who replace Him
With lofty ideas
With base desires
To me who rejects Him
In favor of
Nothing valuable and everything vain?

But then again
It would not be a better grace
If it could have been attained
By my own effort
Because I deserved it
Deserved Him
For if righteousness could have been attained
By the grace that has been replaced
Then a better grace
He would not be.

But right here
Here in this moment
A better grace seems out of reach
Simply because I can not reach it.

How frustrating.

But how beautiful.

I sit here, O my God
In the wee hours
Of the morning
Unable to reach your grace
In need of You
To reach down to me
Like you reached down to my world
So long ago
With the grace
And the truth
Of the cross.

It is better that I cannot reach it
Cannot reach him
Because it is better
For him to reach out to me
Because as he does
I know
And cannot doubt
That He loves me
That He forgives me
That He saves me
That He is my brother
That You are my Father
Not simply because you created me
But because you adopted me.

A grace replaced
With Grace
With Truth
With Jesus
Is a better grace
Indeed.